“When I got pregnant with my third child, I was angry. ‘Why, why?’ I asked!!!!
“I love all of my four children. I believe they all asked to be with me. It was all meant to be. But my son Ivan was the one that I didn’t want.
“When I got pregnant with Ivan, I was so angry. I wanted to get an abortion. It’s terrible to say, but I was going through a very difficult, chaotic time with my two older girls. I was not happy.
“Now I realize that Ivan is the best thing that ever happened to me! He was meant to be born.
“Now I understand. He has been such wonderful help for me. I was going through difficult times.
“It was Ivan who helped me. He loves me so unconditionally.
“Ivan, he is always so nice and positive about everything. If I get angry, he hugs me and makes me feel better. If I yell at him, he will kiss me and say, ‘I love you, Mom.’
“That’s all I need. He always makes me happy. He brings love and serenity to me. Comfort. I’m going to be okay!
“After I read about children choosing parents before birth, I realized Ivan chose me to help through my sad periods:
‘That’s why I got pregnant!!!! It was for me!’
I see my son Ivan, meaning ‘Gift from God,’ as a Light!! He is here to heal me. That is part of his job on earth!”