Entering Physical Reality

In the beginning of a pregnancy, the soul manifests as a tiny, electric blue, whirling light, glowing cloudlike over the mother's navel. This light grows in strength and size as pregnancy advances. -- Murshida Vera Justin Corda

• Pregnant in a Time of Crisis
• Unconscious Effects on Unborn Child
• An Unborn Child's Mind Is Not A Blank State
• Conception of A Warrior Son
• Message of the Hummingbird
• Conscious Motherhood

Lia

My second pregnancy serves as a example of the delicacy of an expectant mother's mental, emotional and physical state. Not only that, the soul watched over me until my health normalized before making a commitment to be born.

I became pregnant during a time of crisis. I had just separated from her husband Jon and was on the verge of a divorce. The emotional and spiritual struggle over whether to abort or not took its toll on my health.

I was ill the first three months. I had a healthy diet, used naturopathic and homeopathic remedies so I should not have been sick. I felt there was a struggle going on. I wanted this baby, but I did not want to be pregnant under the circumstances. I was sick as a dog. I could not even walk up the stairs to the kitchen to cook for myself. It was a nightmare living by myself.

My experience supports the belief that unborn children are receptive, sensitive, and intuitive. The soul stood far outside and looked in and thought, "I don't know about this deal." There was a decision-making point between us and a power struggle because I did not want this to happen and at the same time, I did want the baby.

I stopped being paranoid and wanting a miscarriage or an abortion at the end of the first trimester. The soul then made the commitment to stay and I started feeling a closer association.

A lot of my pregnancy was tumultuous. Scott and I were going through therapy and arguing about what we should do. Emotionally it was a roller-coaster. I felt like an abusive parent. I was yelling at Scott and my kid was listening to it.

I needed to remain as calm as possible and to develop my consciousness. So I focused on balancing the ups and downs by eating right, nurturing myself and resting. So she loved when my husband and had a good day and when I listened to music. Meditation music was wonderful. I relaxed and she danced. She would move after being quiet all day listening to me yell. She loved music. I can see it in her body now. And I felt it when she was in utero.

I discovered a homeopathic doctor at the end of three months. He asked a lot of questions. I described my symptoms and he prescribed remedies. They took care of nausea. After the homeopathic, I started eating in two days. He also sent me homeopathics for stretch marks, indigestion, etc. I did homeopathics the whole way through.

I had borderline diabetes at seven months and took one remedy to balance out my blood sugar. He said next time you go and do a urine test, there won't be any glucose and that was true. The homeopathic worked on my stress level. I have had recurring yeast infections and problems for years and he cured that so when the baby came through the birth canal, she did not get yeast. He cleaned me inside out.

Another thing I had to deal with was comments from friends about my small size. Their remarks prepared me for the worst. I listened to everyone make derogatory rude comments each month of my pregnancy: "You do not look pregnant at all." They told me how huge they had been when pregnant and said, "God, this baby must be small."

After listening for seven months to "you don't look pregnant," it was an accumulation consciously of fear that something was wrong. Then a doctor told me that there is not enough amniotic fluid, the baby may not be nourished properly and we may have to take it out early. We need to check it out. The doctors made me into a statistic. The doctor determined that my amniotic fluid fell into the 10 percentile of amniotic fluid. Intensive medical care was advised for the remainder of my pregnancy. It was like my greatest fear come true. I freaked it. I was hysterical.

I went from going to see a midwife once a month who did not poke or prod to having two ultrasounds a week. I even went to a perinatal specialist who had the most advanced ultrasound equipment. They thought there might be something wrong with the baby's kidneys.

All of that turned out to be unnecessary. There was nothing wrong with the baby. I birthed a totally healthy 6 lb. 14 oz. baby, three and one-half weeks early. She was nourished and she has had no health problems. I just had no fluid. It was my body. My first pregnancy was healthy, but they never did an ultrasound so who knows if I had low fluid or not. Maybe that is the way I am. When the water broke in my second pregnancy, it felt more than in my first child's birth. I can't imagine that that is low. It is just me.

However, I listened to the doctor when he told me: "You are much too small. There is something wrong with the baby." There is this power trip that doctors have.

Cathy

I became pregnant for the third time when our second child was four months old. Besides the burden of caring for two small children, it was a time of great insecurity. My husband Jim was out of work and would disappear from home for two or three days at a time.

My third child Tommie did not want to be born. They had to use forceps on him. For the first six weeks, Tommie did nothing but scream. The pediatrician determined that there was nothing physically wrong . He blamed Tommie's abnormal behavior on summer heat and humidity as well as the noise of the other two babies in the home. As an adult, Tom is shut down emotionally. He plays the stalwart hero his wife can count on. He is the protector and provider. He won't leave her. He is everything his father would not be. He saw the turmoil I went through and does not want to repeat it.

Joanna

In the womb, my children were uncomplicated and there was a purity in their personality. I sensed the refined aspects of their personality because they were not experiencing the stress and pressure of life yet. They were just in there floating around and being happy. Sara's personality felt happy and reassuring. Jason was masculine, curious, light-hearted, but a focused little guy. I felt Jason's excitement as his hands moved out and explored the environment. The baby in my womb now has a quiet, reserved, powerful personality.

I sensed the personalities of each of my four unborn children, yet sometimes I misinterpreted my subtle perceptions.

Eva

My first pregnancy progressed with only a minor hitch in the last trimester. For some reason, the condition could not be medically confirmed. A bone specialist said I had arthritis in my ankles. But when I had synovial fluid taken out -- no sediments. All the tests and X-rays showed nothing.

After I birthed my daughter, I had a spontaneous flashback of living in Rome and turning thumbs down on the Christians in the arenas. I saw a beautiful child being dragged by a lion by her foot. I don't know if that was my daughter, but I felt that I had worked out that karma in my pregnancy.

Mara

We consciously conceived a child early in our marriage. Within the first trimester, Ken received a job transfer 1,500 miles away. We had to make a major move. All these dramatic changes made life complicated. However, once life stabilized, my pregnancy enriched our relationship.

My experiences provide information about the unborn child's personality from the moment of conception. My sensitivity is important otherwise we may have been too overshadowed by the pregnancy to sense that a newborn has much of a personality.

I have an ethereal, inherently nervous constitution and personality and I am sensitive to my physiology. So I felt a huge upheaval in my body after we conceived our first child. Morning sickness began along with different food cravings within two days. I had been a vegetarian for ten years, but I felt a need for meat and was satisfied when I ate it throughout the first trimester.

Someone else was there. I felt a boldness inside -- bold and warrior-like. There was a wildness in terms of personality. During the first couple months, I had trouble closing my eyes to meditate because I had so much going on inside. I was battling my environment, hormonal fluctuations, cravings for meat and later Indian food. It was an unstable time. My husband says I was volatile.

In the third month, I felt a support system that was not usually there, a different vibration, something greater. I felt smoother and meditated more often. The bliss was unbelievable. The baby responded to meditation -- so much bliss in the baby. So much fun. I had a playmate.

I felt amplified due to the merging of my energy with the strong male child inside my womb, a source of the extra fighting power. My seven-year-old son has the same personality he had in the womb.

Timothy uses his consciousness to remove negativity. He has a charmed life. It's a blissful kind of thing for him. It doesn't bring him any physical danger. But he sees it going on all the time -- he sees it at night when his eyes are closed. It does not frighten him, but it may keep him awake. In the morning, he tells me what happened.

Timothy puzzles his teachers. He is a happy, balanced, creative student, yet his art work and stories reflect themes between good and evil forces battling it out.

He loves monsters just as much as the good guys, not identifying with the good anymore than with the evil. Timothy could be either one. He identifies with the confrontation. Compared to children who personify their fears in a monster and then see how they can conquer, he has no fear of the bad guys. It's a gleeful thing for him, a big party.

Ken

I experienced a subtle vision before anyone realized Mara was pregnant. We were relaxing at home on a hot summer afternoon, just lying there. Suddenly I experienced a large, luminous, golden cloud hovering above Mara. I saw it in my inner awareness, not with my physical eyes. I felt the presence of our child. I knew that was our son Timothy. I thought, "Oh, my gosh! Someone special is coming in as our child or he is already here." We later calculated that Mara was seventeen to twenty-one days into the pregnancy.

In the latter part of Mara's pregnancy, we noticed our son's sensitivity to spiritual texts.

Timothy jumped for joy in the womb every time we played an audio tape of our spiritual teacher. He was leaping and kicking when he heard his voice. Mara felt his joy. He was happy. Timothy also became extremely alert whenever my wife listened to scriptures by pundits. Mara sensed his attention on it. Timothy was listening.

Mara also experienced her consciousness travel out of her body and along with the subtle body of our unborn child. That is when he taught her many things on the subtle realm. Our son is an exceptional fellow. I had some similar experiences.

Mara

We consciously conceived a second child three years later. Once more, I realized that my child's basic personality exists in seed form before birth. Just as in the first pregnancy, pregnancy blessed me with another jet engine, an amplification of energy, as well as heightened awareness.

Within two days, I knew I was pregnant. I felt like a royal elephant, like a great, divine mother. I experienced a sense of stability and strength. Normally, I have a nervous constitution and am effected by the environment. This was a radical difference. Nothing could rattle me. I felt like I could do anything.

My transformation did not end even when the umbilical cord was cut. I still feel that way around my daughter. There was barely a difference between having her inside my womb and having my daughter sleep next to me. She has a soft, heavy, silence. Her fullness and stability extend everywhere.

Germaine is a powerful little girl, a source of strength to me. She has total confidence in herself. When she came into my life, my heart and mind felt, "This is what I need." I depend on her more than she does on me. Germaine accepts that everything is as it should be. I've never had to work with her in dispelling anything.

Naki, a sixty-year-old Cherokee Medicine Woman, usually does not share her spiritual dreams and visions with the White man.

Naki

We don't put our visions in books. They are spiritual, a mystery. We don't talk about them. Our way is altogether different. When people do not understand, they sound weird to them and they condemn our visions.

However, I will share one story from my pregnancy with the youngest of eight children. My daughter is now in her twenties.

Every morning when I was pregnant, I saw a hummingbird outside my window. As soon as my baby was born, I gave my daughter the name of the hummingbird which in my dialect is Welela.

An interesting incident occurred later on, when Welela was twelve years old. Naki and husband were sitting outdoors. Welela walked out of the house to join them. As she passed through the porch, two hummingbirds approached Welela.

The mouth that the hummingbirds suck with went into each of my daughter's ears, just like her ear was a flower. A green hummingbird went into her right ear and a red hummingbird into her left ear.

Welela screamed, "Take it off. Take it off! Mom, Mom! What is going on?"

When the hummingbirds flew away, Welela said, "Mom, the grown-up grandmother was talking to me." I said, "Well, don't say anything about this to anyone.

My daughter remembered the message, but she cannot give it out. She was being passed the medicine. That is her personal medicine. Medicine means whatever the Creator gives. She was gifted. That is the Indian way.

Welela's medicine, her gift, is to give the good and bad medicine. And great grandmother happened to come down to tell her which one she is going to take. It is floating there.

Indian Medicine is not something that can be taught. This healing ability is bestowed on someone from the other side as it was passed on to Naki's daughter.

Judy

In both of my pregnancies, I become more in tune with a deeper level of myself, of how my physiology, mind and emotions work. Pregnancy can be an opportunity for growth if we allow ourselves to open up to that and go with it.

Early in my first pregnancy, I suffered kidney weakness and ear infections. In the last trimester, further complications arose --high blood pressure and swelling. Despite the discomforts, I acknowledged their positive value.

Many physiological weaknesses showed up during pregnancy because my body was working so hard and using so much energy to produce a child. Pregnancy gave me an opportunity to be aware of those inherent physiological weaknesses and to learn how to live so that that they don't develop into chronic diseases. I've noticed a lot of growth and progress in that respect.

The first pregnancy taught me to emphasize improving health. Consequently, the second pregnancy at 39 was free of the complications which arose in the first. My efforts paid off and I felt physiologically stronger. I paid attention to environmental influences which created physical, mental or emotional discomfort. My sensitivity became a guide for a healthier pregnancy.

Pregnancy has its plus and minuses. I open up to that growth which is wonderful, but I also open up when I go out into the environment to non-life-supporting influences which can be overwhelming. I am ultra-sensitive to the environment and must protect myself even more than normally.

This can also be useful when I look at it from a broader perspective. It indicates what actions in my life are life-supporting and evolutionary. For example, the types of food I eat. When I eat out of the home, I can get a headache. My digestion isn't as good when foods have preservatives, are not cooked with the same influence or aren't as fresh. The effects of riding in a car a lot also has a weakening effect on my physiology and I tend to be sensitive to cigarette smoke and gas fumes. These become heightened during pregnancy.

I find it works out better if I'm more inward and at home during pregnancy than trying to be in the world. It is a time for inward growth and letting my energy go inward to nourish the child and use that energy constructively for my own growth. It's a special time in that sense.

Hand-in-hand with insights into environmental influences, my second pregnancy brought deeper emotional insights. I realized I have anger which I've been suppressing. I've never been comfortable expressing anger or intense feeling. That anger has been there on a deep level and I've never let it come out. So I've become more aware of how that works. And I find now if I get upset about something I'm actually angry. In the past, when I would cry, I thought it was due to fear and anxiety, but there was anger underneath that. In one sense, it may seem like I'm worse off, but I'm more in tune with my physiology.

My pregnancies brought spiritual transformations. I grew up as a devout Catholic until I went to college in the '60's with all the student unrest where I fell away from the Catholicism. I never connected to that part of my life again. I had grown up with that and it had been meaningful to me. A piece had been missing. I didn't feel that I could comfortably pray to God. In my first pregnancy, my husband and I felt more in tune with God and we became comfortable at expressing ourselves in prayer and gratitude.

My second pregnancy ushered in further inner growth. Devotion to God became deeper and richer. Since I'm more sensitive during pregnancy, I'm more in tune with that refined feeling level in the physiology which is also the level at which we begin to culture a deeper devotion to God.